Darek's Testimony - shared at his baptism in Jan 2013

My name is Dariusz . And this is my Christian testimony. According to Revelation 12:11: "we overcome our enemy by the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony".

I want to be baptised in water, because God says so: "repent, baptise and be baptised". To change our heart, mind and attitude we need to give our life to Christ, sacrifice it, just like he sacrificed his life for us. To stop being servant of sin to being servant of Jesus.

 I would like to tell my story of how God has transformed me. Before I met the Lord my life was different. I was looking for peace in my life, to feel comfortable, but always a part was missing. I never could feel really satisfied. My life was revolving around my inner pain, the lack of forgiveness to those unnamed. I even couldn’t see a necessity to forgive to myself. A time of abuse, weaknesses, hopelessness in a reality of a small town in Poland. My childhood surely has got some happy moments: time without pain, suffering, feeling lonely, unloved, not needed, not belonging. The harm kept in my heart was growing and bursting from time to time. I was keeping the record of that debt. I could not forgive. The justice for me was: "The eye for eye, the tooth for tooth". The lack of forgiveness gave me deep inside excuse to be as bad as they were. I was bullied and not knowing where to find help. I was very young and started falling away from the right path. Problems at school, escaping into virtual world, like a spiral were getting worse and worse. The solution: to escape from that. The desire was freedom. But what is physical freedom without freedom of mind?

Finally I broke through - God surely was there. I went quickly into committed relationship and to hard work to satisfy my inner needs, on a way to freed myself, but inside I wasn't full, complete.My insecurities grew, I was heading away from God in my relatively safe and comfortable life. I almost lost my faith. I was feeling more and more isolated - from God and deep inside. My health went bad. I was thinking that everything was lost; thinking about my life as a countdown! Countdown to the inevitable. But then thanks to conversations with Christian friends of mine and their prayers I was given a new life! It was a miracle! My sickness was quickly sorted. Also my heart was more free then before. But to truly believe, repent and give my life to Christ I need to wait till next event in my life. Again I was feeling let down by people, sour, in pain and despair. Again friends prayed for me. I was praying as well: deeply, truly, as strong as I could. I was rescued again!

Since then I trust in Christ, he is my saviour, he encouraged and transformed me. Now I feel complete, no part is missing. I feel so much more happy than before. I am now forgiving, just like he has forgave me. No longer chains from the past could impact on me, they are gone: I am free! Sadness changed into happiness, fear of future into courage and I gain deep faith that he has got plan for me. It is the greatest relationship I was ever in my life: his unending love fulfils me. He provides for me, he loves me, he gave me his favour. Jesus is alive and he loves me!